Monday, June 30, 2008

i sleep in a drawer

so spending the night in a car wasn't so bad but i certainly wouldn't want to do it everyday. i was reminded that i have it really, really good in life. about 4 other women were parked in the same lot, but i didn't get to meet any of them. the dynamic was interesting. i felt very much like i was intruding. one of the women approached me to tell me that i couldn't park there. after i explained that i had permission, i tried to introduce myself, but she didn't respond and ended up walking away. the scene was very odd. the lot is at the old santa barbara mission...on the top of a hill...overlooking a stunning rose garden and million dollar homes...weird. i actually slept somewhat decently, other than being cold!
today i'm meeting with a woman who is the night manager at a local grocery store and living in an rv. i have to say i'm doubting my ability to put all this together. i know i'm not getting all the footage i need, but at times i find it hard to pick up the camera because it just doesn't feel "right." i'm sure i'll come home with huge gaps in material, but i'll just have to work with what i have. i'm beginning to identify with agee and evans in that somehow video footage just doesn't seem to completely cut it. how do you communicate the intangible? and what the hell am i doing anyway? i'm more confused than ever about what i'm trying to accomplish with all this. grrrrrr...

1 comment:

Eliot said...

I'm sure you have, but for my sake, please get some good establishing shots of this lot / former mission, the rose garden, the million-dollar homes; the setting there as you describe it sounds terribly ironic and poetic and encapsulates much of the story you're trying to tell.

call me once you're back!